Surprise Surprise.... SO NOT! STRESS!!
Mommaaaaa.......Somebody save meeeeeee!!
wat luck waz today? suddenly like a load of garbage .. LOADS of Hw piled up on me....i'm still like not done yet for last weeks hw....omigod....omigoshz....oh wtf....i'm like wanting to scream my head off.........strezz strezz strezz....
yest i slept like oni a few hours.....i'm oni done wif de fuckin research at abt 1 pluz am! n i waz like exhausted searching 4 dumb stuff in which i've wasted tym cuz in de end....i cant find anything valid! n den i gotta know....diyanah told me dat u've gotta make ur own ptz.....i'm like wtf? again........shld've told me sooner....wasted like hours searching nothing.... but least i get to chat wif Zack.... at least somebodyz nice enuff to help me unlike my 'siztaz' huhz!! least yana helped a biiiit laaaaaaa.but hey dey still dun haf the ryt to walk off liddat wifout saying anything to me uhz! i mean hey juz say so if u dun wanna help but ....privately conversing amg urself n walking off wifout saying a thing? dun u think datz kinda rude 'SIztaz'??
neyway...Zack waz a real help n kinda saved my life.if not 4 him.i wld've not a wink o slp at all uhz.....Thanx Zack! wish i cld say ...i dunno 'lova ya'? i mean as in thank ya? but i'm gonna bet u dun particularly like to get cosy up wif gals no more r ya? haix....
neywayz....sch waz kinda sux tyoday.HE wasnt in sch today!!!! n itz so NOt my day!! awwww...itz like him being my gd luck charmer isnt der 4 me! aiyoh! what the fuck u toking ain? tsk tsk tsk.....shame on u.....get a life!
how??? today i juz found out i'm not qualified 4 hockey.....THANK GOD! i shld b happi uhz.but i'm not...de next big prob....I'M CCA LESS!! diz iz like de eva first thing in my life to be CCA less! i used to be like soooooooo damn fuckin committed in my cca...n now i'm cca less??? itz so hard to accept reality.....y? y ? y? i dun giva a damn abt hockey no more...i tell u dat....or i'm tellin ya again....hell to hockey....ur blind not to choose me.....man...itz not like i'm despo to join hockey...but i juz cant accept de fact that i'm cca less!! i haf absolutely NO idea wat to join now!! n i'm like darn hell worried.....i dunnoo i dunno i dunno....basketball? i duunnoo...i do want to play dat sport BUt....de ppl i'm gonnna bet r like sux...n i think itz conducted in Bartley....so itz gonna be like half my life every wed...i'm gonna spent travelling to n fro Bartley....hey 4get it...but den wat? netball? de bitchz taking it! n i cant risk my life in der! i'm gonna die if i join! in pe shes already like torturing us....n if in netball? shes gonna expect 200% effort...haiz! wat else??? i'm like made to do sportz but itz so little choices!....volleyball is so outa qn!! i hate dat game since like eva! n tennis juz sux....man!!!! wat to join!!!! clubz?? sooooo boooring!! Mcs? i'm like so bad in acting? Angklung? i'm like double de bad in music.!! i 've no idea how to read those tauge notes...bla bla bla..de oni advantage is ders My One dwn der...but itz not like itz guaranteed hes gonna b mine if i join.....plus....i'm like dunno hopeless in music....library? i'm not gonna b stuck wif dat A.S all day...certainly NOT! photographic juz so troublsome....n i'm honna bet itz boring....tarian? wat a joke....i've like NO experience in cultural mly dance AT ALL! hahahz...i'm so not Miss Graceful.. i told ya.all i can do is sportz!! but wtf? ders like so limited choices!! even if u say itz still a variety...i've like missed all de fuckin try outs in all de games.....luck! luck! luck!
haiz, i juz dunno.....my mind is sooooo messed up.......boy i do need a time out.....nowadays.i dunno..i'm recalling my sec sch dayz.i'm like so misssing em.........i miss my frenz.......i wanna tok to em...i wanna do all dose stuff togather like b4.!!! i wanna! i wanna!i wanna! sniff..sniff.......i still missed my baby! i lost my water bottle last fri! n i've no idea where the hell it went! n i cant find it anywhere! haix which despo freak steal it?? curses on u!! n i've got to like spend anoder 6 precious buckz on a a new one....if not i'd be spending 2 buckz a day juz 4 buying green tea!
sumbody online leh! i'm like in need to tok to sumone n complain!!hw is so waiting 4 me in my room.....tml pe...luckily 1 period oni.but hey it cld be worse den lasts week....aiyoh....be positive ain.....wat the hell! wat the fuck is the use of training ur body when u cant use it in a cca?! fuck!!!!! let me join sumthing! sumthing that is my kind of thing!! but wat!!!! answers! come to me!!! ahz....i'm starting again...i'd beta go b4 i'm totally freaked out! PiZ OUt ~
Posted at 5/3/2004 6:42:31 pm by GurL_AiN
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Haiz...wat a week.so swayed...
itz been a real fuckin week so far.....real swayed....n real tiring.... i can oni remember up till wed's events...okie so on wed...ders a fuckin boring seminar that practically rocks me to slp! wat waz i wasting my tym der 4? oh yah....waz forced to go...fuckin teachers....do dey relli think we relli benefit frm that fuckin seminar? i waz like already asleep on de bus back to sch oni to wake up to find hockey waiting 4 me.....fuckz....
i waz like a half zombie hands up walking into de sch gate...climbing up de stairs.... changed into pe attire....climbed de stairs dwn......n git my name dwn in de list.wtf....i waz actually hating hockey 4 makin me come...n not oni dat i've to go tru diz try out thingy....well wtf? i've like no experience in hockey at all...n here they r like wanting experienced ppl..how bias can they be? anw de training waz like relli sux.... cuz we haf to like sprint 4 nothing n i waz like straining my muscles n now itz cramping like hell!! n do sum dumb dribbling wif de fuckin ball dat left a memorable mark on my hand... fuck it...dey even teach us how to hold de fuckin stick...n i'm tellin ya itz like a retard way of holding a fuckin stick...so fuckin nonsense man.....i waz like sweating my self 4 nothing yahz....n it ended late fuck em even more...if i dun qualify in their list ,thier fuckin suckers 4 de rest of their lifez! but hey itz not like i'm dying to be n der! i dun even know y i put hockey as my first choice!! i'd be a hell thankfull if i dun qualify at all.....itz practically a sickening way of getting ur body cramped....whens de fuckin results gonna be up...i'm already thinking of quiting already.but wat if i got in? watto do.juz play along uhz......fuckz...
n den on fri waz pe...wat a fuckin day i had.my WORST eva pe training EVA had! de bitch wants us to run 9 fuckin laps ard de fuckin field! imagine dat! even 2.4 is oni 8 rounds....wtf? n itz broken up into sets of 1/2/3 rounds per tym...n if we din fisnish in the set tym.....we gotta do 10 push ups on de spot....fuck u la bitch! wat fate i got unda u....afta dat we haf to do pull ups n sum stupid hand excercise on de fuckin bench....dat waz like de last straw ..... i got into class wif fuckin shivery hands n legz...its beeen like years since i hadf diz kinda training.i gotta admit i've slack 4 de past few years but hey cant we like start slow? fuckin bitch...think we Wonder woman isit? i havent finish econs...n i cldnt start writing cuz my hands were like...i dunno....stiff n shivery....man i waz like on de verge of crying....i havent finish econs essay in which i've to complete in within de next two periods n here i waz ...cldnt write...i dunno how to put into gd words but i waz relli feeling sick at de tym.,i'm tellin ya if der waz a test of sumthing worse i wld've flooded de bathroom..not wif my Wee-Wees but my tears....juz a bit more fuckin pressure n i'm a crying machine...
well datz over....n on sat ders like a family gathering to celebrate de May annivesaries n b'dayz..my siz got to celebrate her april b'day too...n she got a fuckin pretty bangle n a couple of 10 buckz frm aunts.....how fuckin unfair!!! mine waz in march n i got nothing! not relli nothing but as in i dun get to celebrate it the way my siz getz to....i cant help feelin jealous.who wldnt...i'm trying to be happi 4 her but hey .......u cant help feeling dat way.........haix......wat luck....
today i'm like spoz to go madrasah n haf my test.....but fuck to hell wif it.i'm like oni hafal 3 outa 8 surahz.....n i wld be like wasting my tym if i go so i din go uhz.....here i am stuck at home.. completed sum o my hws....ders research yet to be done.haix....ders neva a rest in life ...n i'm gonna bet itz gonna b a hell lot tougher in de upcomin times ...madrasahz gonna haf itz mid yeras at de end of may i think....wat luck... ....i'm like totally lost in studies der.....n here in MI....ders more tests to come....
wat to do....mayb i'm destined to come here .do my stuff.n get out...cant wait when itz tym to grad.keep on dreamin freak .u've got ur As to do....well c yaz ....i'm gonna get myself stufffed....adioz~
Posted at 5/2/2004 9:25:47 pm by GurL_AiN
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Haiz todayz juz anoda sickening day....
had a fuckin seminarz datz relli not at all abt motivating us....realli stupidz n dumbz uhz...but ovall itz ok cuz at least ders sum fuckin jokes to laugh at.....dey relli can kill me wif laughter manz....r relli a bunch o clowns...lolz...makes me kinda interested at first to be an actress...( keep o dreamin freak..) how bad i waz at acting,.....but hey who knows my talent is found in Mi.....u wld neva know.... But too bad...u relli haf to b committed to join MCS....n i simply dun haf da tym n i cannot afford my free tym to spend on sum dumb acting....neywayz dat part waz enjoyable...
de first lecture waz from an Uztaz...ntah maner dier bleh tersesat kat sini....i mean hey a motivational tok....in sch....an Uztaz??? doesnt sounds ryt uhz? he brags on abt histories n abt life...wat we haf to do as a muslim...if de tok waz based on de theme of religionz...it cld b ok...but what the heckz de link to motivate us wif dat??? pardon me uhz but hey i relli gotta say u bore us on de spot man.......it cld've been a some refreshment to de ears in Mesjid....but in a lecture theater? uhz? wtf?
n den ders dis super indon guy....cld've been cuter when hes younger.....hes actually not bad of a lecturer unlike Mi's lecturer...most r bored to death........niway hes namez Shahril....n werks as a lecturer in a polytechnic.....datz de hell y i wanna go der!! de lecturers r super frenly........wahahahahx.......wat fatez.....got dumped here....well wat to do...i gotta do wat shahril sez... fate lies in ur hands....u gotta make de best of wat u haf..bleh bleh bleh.........surprising i actually rmber wat he sez uhz.....itz relli rare 4 me to do diz...mayb bcuz hes .how shld i say? beta den de average? o curz hes beta! uhz i mean hes got like SOoooo many qualificationz...wahz........how envious....
den ders sum stupid games....twaz not dat fun uhz....but hey i'm trying to make de best outa it....lucky ders sya...if not i'd die of boredorm dwn der..
i still haf like tons of hws to do.....tests on mon: econs sum more...fuck sia... how de hell am i gonna find tym?? freak...got mad. sum more..uhz next week test on hafalan lagik real fuckin sick....how de hell can u hafal 8 surah wif tajwid witin a week?> datz like impossible!! n i've relli no tym to do dat manz...wat wif 4 fuckin econs essay...bitch lah dat arul.... think we so free isit? i've yet to come across a tym where i relli cannot cope n break down....juz wait n c....i'll start crying my hearts out....fuck man....
now my whole body aching like fuckz...am so dead tired....so not in de mood to do any hws.......how can i stop myself frm procastinating?? heyheyhey learnt a new werd frm shahril today :P yah i'm trying not to postpone my werk till last min,...........but hey i cant help it man! how can i do when i'm feeling so tired?? oh man....beta luck tml? plz plz plz.....lemme finish all my hws n learn for econs test?? plz oh godz.....diz weeks is so swayed....haix....i'm falling asleep at de keyboard redy.juz like ash sed.haix...so many sighz...i'd beta go now...bubyez!
Posted at 5/1/2004 1:08:41 am by GurL_AiN
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