 |
|
|
|
|
|
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
oh goshz....... :(
haix...lets start wif tues...haix....i waz all panicky abt tues....cuz i waz scared i'll b experiencing an event i nvr wanted to feel....dat is sitting btwn 2 guyz fighting over me......but wahz....SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH!! Tuhan saje yg tau betape bersyukurnyer hamba bile on tues morn.....sya blang dat fir tak dtg sch....wat a freaking big relieve....n den lata in geog clazz....shazni didnt call 4 me....haax!! i get to sit wif sya!! oh yay! oh wow!! oh great! hahax....twaz a happi day until pe tym...twaz a hell...4 me.......i din know y n wat mood were they in....they were screwing us up like hell.. we haf to run like 5 tymz up n dwn de hill wif sum stupid scissors jump...n endless jumping jackz...wah lau eh....i used to luv jumpin jackz.but now i get tired up so easily sehz.wah how cld i lose to my darn body?!! muz werk out my stamina!!muz werk out!NAFA test is in aug...2mths away oni!!!haix.......my mum juz asked if we wanna try out de gym her frenz intro her...haiyoh..but not bad wat...in de hols can werk out 4 my stamina ...even beta!
den afta sch i asked fir nape tak dtg sch....dier kater dier tak sihat....ahahah i waz like heheh tak sihat kape? sebab smlam i dun wanna call him isit?? hahahz....pas tu dier bleh pi shopping lagi tu.... banyak diernyer sakit........den he ask me to call him 4 5 min.....ahahz yah n it ended up 20 min pluz..he waz asking me if i'm angry wif him or wta...i waz like DUH!!! if ur too stupid to notice dat...u reli r one sicko...he waz all" did u miss me?" n kept pressing me 4 an ans...i waz like wat the hell man? i dun wanna ans that fuckin qn...den juz let it b dat way.i juz said wateva....n he wan me to call him....n he waz all sorying to me....haha....WATEVA! i told my siz abt it....dat he wan me to be frank wif him.....haha....i waz like u relli dun wan me to be straight4ward wif u........my siz actually sed...No kak...no! dun be straight wif him! hahz how well she knew me....o curz if i were to b very frank wif him...he will delete all de nice things he've imagined abt me.....hahx! hed hate me 4 sure if not ,get himself away frm me de very least... last nyt i waz all panicking abt today ...shazni asked me out to de movie...n i'm so scared n excited....bof my siz n bro waz actually saying... "GOLAH!PEGI JE....!" ahahax wat support i haf! well i told him ok...n he waz like so shock...dunno y...he waz de one who invited me........anw...yahz..
today early in de morn...i waz walking to clazz...n saw shazni at de staircase goin up...he literally saw me n i saw him n he smiled n i reply back ...den he msg me gd morn.... den i msged him back ah dat lata afta sch my clazz haf to stay back n arrange tables in de hall 4 de examination.....okie so itz all canceled.haix i missed it but hey i'd nvr knew de positive sign of de whole thing...
lata today at home shazni msged me...asked me if i wanna be his girlfren! oh my god! i reply back isnt it like too fast? he say yah but den he say his emo develop very fast? i'm like oh? but i sed sori cuz i'm not redy to commit myself in a relationship yet....haix...he sed hes disappointed but hey i told him i tak pandai pujuk n den ders surely other beta gurls den me.......i told me siz abt it...n she sed i'm stupid....i'm like wat wrong did i do? she sed alah juz 4 fun can wat.....haiz she dunno me laaaaa...i simply cannot take diz thing 4 fun bcuz i know dat sum day my feelings will relli grow 4 diz person n i tend to take relationship real seriously.......but i dun think i'm juz redy yet....haix....memanglah i want....who dun want ryt? i shld b thankful ders sum ppl who actually fancy me....rather than none........but hey it shldnt b de case dat i've to say yes to return dat thankfulness.....but still i feel i did de ryt thing cuz ryt now ders 2 guyz afta me.....n bof sounded me n i rejected bof....i feel dat biar 2 2 yg hampa........bukan sorang jek..i dun wan later dey feel that they lack of wat the other guy had...haix.......so hard...anw i still need time to stabalize myself here first..i'm like not coping very well in studies n wanna tok abt bgr....aiyoh...kinda burden...baru tadi kat sch William dah lecture pasal diz bgr thing affecting studies...haix.....
well i'm so not in a gd mood.i've juz been pissed off by fir...i dunno...every msg he sent me like i feel so irritated.......hey i'm havin my period ryt now.n its so not a gd day to be sounded to stead....haiz...plz understand.....haiz.....haiz.........haiz.....
juz now my bro came back shaking all over........first time i eva saw him so traumatic n so horrified....oh kat sch dier ader accident...but den de real reason y my bro became liddat is cuz he witnessed de accident first hand...n de guy actually died in front of his eyes....oh wow.....i duno if i cld cope wif dat...haiz mcm-mcm........i think i'd either fainted too or burst into tears....goshz....haix...i'm like real letargic ..n i'm gonna bet 4 this few days........exam!! ah dun remind me! i'm logging off!
Posted at 5/26/2004 7:56:21 pm by GurL_AiN
Permalink
Monday, May 24, 2004
oh wow.....oh goshz...oh great...oh sheeshz....oh EVERYTHING!!!
okie whenz my last entry? on fri? ok ryt afta dat day.itz juz became all worse.......huaz huaz.....afta all dat nonsense....on sat morn...let c wat'd i do? oh yah wanna do my hw....i finished geog....when fir msged me ....wat uhz? oh yah....he asked me to go wif de musical thingy wif him lata dat nyt.....as a date!.....oh goshz...i mean how cld i possibly??!! actually itz kinda ok but den on 2nd thought...i'm like who to him ryt? we juz got to know each other so soon....n hes actually already asking me out to a date....oh well i juz haf to turn him down....my reason? i aredy promised my frenz i'm goin wif em..oh well....i din c him anyway dat nyt...but he told me he saw me dat nyt...and den say i'm sombong 4 not smiling at him back when he smiled at me...i was like...where the fuck r u? i din c the hell of u at all that nyt....n here u r saying me bad 4 not returning ur smile.....n den i waz like thinking....kalo dah nampak...kenape tak tegur?n he waz all like."alah awk lawa sgt ah tak tertegur sy..." all dat crap! anw abt de mly musical thingy........ahahahz.........twaz stupid.....n pathetic show ah...but sum parts r kinda ok.......zanurah diyanah n me waz all like blur ppl come to j.e n no idea where de hell is de chevrons...n den we took de cab.....n den like sotongz aredy sia ....de taxi driver oso dunno where the hell is the chevronz....den ended up haf to pay xtra....stupid! den went home wif sya....
on sun morn.....fir pepagi dah msg me offering nak ajar arab n tajwid 4 my exam ke tak.i waz like nvmlaaaa...tok to him on de fone can take ages...n my bill is relli hauntin me aredy.....den shazni msged me....ok...i relpy duhz cuz he din flood my hp wif so many qnz n conv....n den he asked," arlow...want to watch Troy togather?" ohohohoz...how surprised was i....i mean i've alwayz been invited to watch movies wif frenz....but i always haf to turn dwn deir offer.......but diz tym i dunno y i cldnt say no.....watz gotten into me? i've like nvr been to a cinema...n now my ever first tym going there is wif a guy! ohohoz...ain wat a giant step u took! i had to say ok...unless of curz sumthing crop up dat day n i cant make it.....but ..but..haix......i'm half excited n half scared to death too.i mean.....i relli dunno how itz gonna be like.........i wanna drag sya along but she dun wanna ..........i mean hey she cld always drag shahid along ryt...i mean they juz go so well wif each other.....i've no idea who else to drag........so itz either sumthing reli have to stop me frm goin on wed or i juz have to play along wif da plan.....goshz....sya waz all like..."bawa fir lah" ishz....sya ...ko giler kape?! dier dah ajak aku go date.aku tolak.ni shazni ajak aku tgk movie aku terima..........abeh nak bawak dieR??? bagus benar idea ko! haix....probz probz probz...
beh last nyt i wanna do my econs hw..dah kubuke...dah kusepahkan atas lantai.....tapi tak terbuat...nak tau kenape? i ended up siting on my bed toking to fir....ahx!dier ni memang ah...so demanding......abeh we ended up toking 4 1hr plus!! using my hp!! oh fuck! diz tym i'm relli gonna die!! abeh lepas tu bukan tuje.i haf to end de conv wif getting myself pressurized.....he want to know if i haf feelings 4 him.n i waz like omg...wat a qn.......n he wants it on de spot....i waz like i dunno!! dier tak nak caye!!he wantz a solid ans.i'm like i relli de hell dunno!!! n den ended up...i juz have to pack up my stuff n copy de next day....oh sux....
diz morn went to sch wif sya.........she told me abt her outing wif shahid....wahz so romantic sehz! how envious waz i.......she got along wif guyz so well.....not like me wahz so many probz...anw diz morn....pepagi bute fir dah naik klaz...asking me y i told sya abt our conv last nyt.....i waz like? marah? who de hell is he to be angry wif me? who is he to say i cant do wat i want?sicko!
anw...at sch today lynette told me that she actually had a conv wif luqman abt me! hohoho....well least hes not as stupid as i tot ...hahaz he knows i fancy him...dats gd but y de hell doesnt he say anything? itz hurting to know that de guy knows n does nothing abt it...i mean cldnt we at least have a proper nice conv n b frenz or sumthing? haix....
tmr is gonna be a hell of a day 4 me...fir wants me to sit wif him during geog lesson.i oso dunno how i ended up promising him....but den he stil can say," eh i wanna book u 4 every geog lesson" i waz like wtf? shazni wld wanna sit wif me to tok abt wed's movie......so i'm like wat? spoz to sit in btwn 2 guyz? isnt dat kinda SICK? n i dun get to sit wif my frenz? datz a nightmare........oh goshz.......
i juz recieve a freaking msg frm fir to call him...juz now i received his 5 oclock msg n he even asked sya y i din reply.........fuck lah..wat is sya? my chambermaid? how de hell does she know? pluz wat is sms 4? to leave msgs ryt? wat do u expect? immidiate reply?that is totally crazy.....oh fuck lah!
anw juz now my aunt n uncle n cousin came n bring along my nephew....so cute! hes oni 3mths old but he looked like 6mths old!hes so huge so cute!!
anw haix....blog tonyt was sickening.........i tried once n it dced me...fuck ah buat penat aje aku type....i'm slacking in evrything..i haven been doin any of my sch werk....or wateva i'm so pissed off ryt now...........diz hell of a guy is beginning to be a pest.....he beta watch out cuz he hevent c de nasty side of me yet.pizz out~
Posted at 5/24/2004 10:11:20 pm by GurL_AiN
Permalink
Friday, May 21, 2004
OH my God!! TOdayz de most shockin day eva!! bof 4 me n 4 sya!
todayz sya got to know dat muru actually smokes....boy datz waz a great blow 4 her....i can imagine how heartbroken she is...tsk tsk tsk...poor sya...she waz all dwn juz now....i mean itz actually not surprising 4 dat guy to smoke....i mean frm his appearance...i can actually make a wild guess....like" i think he smokes" cuz hes got lips darker den de usual colour..i man even if hiz almost black...itz pretty obvious de shade of his lips r diff.........plus hes like i dunno...........juz gimme an impression hes frm bad company...de way he presents himself.......but hey no one wanna believed that.who wld? practically almost all de year one gurls are drooling over him...even i cant deny hes kinda hottie....but hey i cant betray My ONE,can i?
speaking of dat.....my day waz actually made up for being half dead running rnd de field....i'm seriuosly speaking...i cld've collapse if i wanna.but hey not nice la.no guyz to pick me up........lolx....so i almost killed myself.....running almost non-stop........luckily ah pok ran wif me.....she pulled me wheneva i slowd dwn to stop,i shld thank her a milliion times cuz if not 4 her.i wld've come afta 6min n ran anoder 2 xtra rounds.......hua hua.....
anw.......in geog clazz....shazni asked me to sit wif him.but hey i cldnt say yes.itz like hey gatal jugak ain ni,....ahahz.so i invite him to sit beside me...den he asked 4 my no....n i asked 4 hiz.....ahahz kinda first tym 4 me 4 an unknown guy to ask 4 my no....haix.anw lata firdaus got my no frm sya...heyhey...diz iz strange n thiz happenz like once in a blue moon...hehehe.....anw we kept msging each oder.....he waz all funny ...i mean as in.i dunno....kinda sounds fishy to me....n den he sey he sound stead me....o curz i waz actually screamin my head off outa shear shock.....den i found out hes actually asking how my respond wld b if he asked me.....i wuz like wth? n den we smsed all de way home.i think by now my bill is floating high.......n he even called me whne he found out dat sya knew he asked me de qn.he waz like so stress cuz she knew...n i'm like um.u din warn me...n actually practically de whole clazz knew........ahahz too bad i cant tell him dat..n shazni msged me too..n strat to sound all fishy oso.haix...dey nvr relli say lah but my siz waz like "they like u la" i mean i cant conclude anyhow.i mean wats wrong wif guyz asking me diz qn? he cld juz be chekin out n mayb datz how they speak to gurlz.........hey i'm so not a pro in diz thing so dun blame me .i oni haf 4 ex n shazni waz sooo shocked,he told me he had 15.wow....ok i 4got to add i'm no playgurl.....i'm serious in diz stuff...datz y i'm not actually looking 4 a guy ryt now.....actually in fact i've made a vow to myself not to haf a guy afta i finished studying...haix...can i achieved that? hopefully........i mean if luqman wantz? whowldnt? i'll nvr say no to luqman.........hehehe.......but hey hopes so thin......haix.......
i haf a mountain of clothes waiting to be ironed........n tonz of hw to finish...........n i'm reli beginning to slack....godz.help me.....sign off~
Posted at 5/21/2004 11:25:47 pm by GurL_AiN
Permalink
Thursday, May 20, 2004
haix....today spretty boringz...
itz already start out pretty bad in de morn... i waited 4 qin de usual tym....n den had to missed 3 trainz cuz i waz like waiting 4 her usual msg saying shes boarded de train...but she didnt today.so afta de 3rd train...i msged her n asked if she juz missed a train....n u know wat she replied me? "oh ain soriz,aku lupe nak msg ko,aku dah gy dulu sebab nak buat hw.." i waz like...wtf man? u made me missed 3 trainz...n u tell me u actually 4GOT! TO TELL ME!? uhz!n so i board de next train n met Nurul...great.....juz wat i need....i'm like heckz wheneva i met her i sure haf to missed lotsa buses to wait 4 her frenz....haix.n that relli made me late...n i hate going to sch like minz b4 de bell ring.... sickening! de day juz didn get any beta.....Sya din come to sch leaving me all aloooone...wif a.s n de fuckin cynthia....y fuckin? i dunno but i simply dislike her...wheneva she tokz to u,she'll get stuck in btwn words n rolled her eyes upwards as if shes havin this fit or sumthing ....n she alwyas speaks in diz boring tone...n i think almost always tokz to herself...cuz o curz i wldnt de hell bother to reply her...haix..n den i wanna go wif lynette...but she signed out afta recess....haiz....so i tot of going wif diyanah...but she signed outa afta sch....great! juz wat i need plenty of ppl signing out when i nd em...
anw...i waz kinda de joke of de day...i dunno how de hell i can trip on diz chair...mayb bcuz i haf to rush to give saggy breast her assignmentz...n den b4 i cld even get outa my seat...my legz actually started energizing up redy to run afta her...when my foot got caught at de chairs legz...n dwn i go crashin to de floor! great....i'm like half laughing n half wailing....sickening day! de oders were like "r u ok?!" n i waz like...hey cmon if i'm ok i wldnt falll 4 no reason...well geez....rudy went all like..."ain,u ok tak? pressure eh i duk sblah u?" n muru waz like," ain u ok or not?"hiz expression waz pathetically shocked...n accordg to aliff...he actually cant stop laughing...shld i believe that?i mean he waz actually asking abt me.. but hey everybody waz...n everybody waz actually laughing at silly me....oh gosh itz like twice i've fallen dwn in thiz sch less den a year juz bcuz of a chair!! first waz when i waz rockin de chair on two legz n i fall in front of two clazzes..i earned 2 min of fame...hahax....how lame waz dat...no i mean how EMBARRESSING!! n everybody waz like taesing me all over again....ahax.oh sya u relli missed de actionz!
in econs clazz .i actually nod off to slp....ahax..almost...now dat arul knows my name...she tries to pick on me....man! now i know how privilaged it is to keep a low profile n not get ur name known! i'm so sick of econs! i'm so lost! i dun half undertsand it! i havent do de hw to be handed in tml.speaking of hw...it reminds me of William chan, our home tutor...ahah diz morn...he waz chasin de guyz who havent complete de srp file....n he waz like all warning us wif diz stern face n angry voice....does he relli think thats scary? i mean itz like hes so dramatic that he actually make a fool of himself trying to be stren.i actually wanted to laugh wheneva he start scolding us ....in which twaz so sudden...n sumtyms of no reason...poor poor old chan....ahahahahahahahahah oh yah no laughing matter he said he wanted to check our werk done by tml...haiz stupid old man...i mean check next week laaa...how to finish by tml?crazy uhz?
hax.....am so tired....juz came back..havent even take off my uni yet...havent bathe..havent eat..havent slp...havent do hw.ahh! sickening!!! i'd beta Piz out b4 i blow off myself!
Posted at 5/20/2004 7:24:46 pm by GurL_AiN
Permalink
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
haix...i'm kinda havin diz tummy ache...haix....listening oto "disana menanti,disini menunggu" wahz...how sedihnyer hati ini :P
itz bin awhile ehz? haix...lifez tougher now since everywherez havin examz...on sun mad....twaz ok...until arab lesson.i'm like absolutely completely lost...n at thiz rate i'm like so not redy to sit 4 de exam next week....tok abt exam...i havent done a single preparation...haix...shld i continue wif semester 2? i'm like serbe salah...haiz haiz haiz.....itz alwayz cool wif me to go mad every weekend...but hey i'm like relli not keen abt de examz at all....:( next week aredy tajwid n arab exam...n i've like done Zero preparation...
on mon....i waz up 4 sch in not a very keen mood...i dunno y...i'm like so down nowadayz...neywayz wat i hoped to lightened up my mon morn din reli werked 4 me....Luqman waz der up on de stage?platform? or wateva u call it.....hez commanding today.....haiz....oways so cute...but i juz din feel perked up dat morn de way i did everytime he comes in sight...pluz he gave de wrong command at de end...hax....watz wif dat?he oso not ok isit?wellz..the day dragged like always....
on tues...de bitch wasnt in sch i think? even if she is , she din take us 4 pe....in which i relli hate de mr ram or wateva his name is 4 taking us....to hell wif him! hes like.."ok ladys 3 rounds arnd de field n den we'll be playing games" ok everyone was happi abt de games part..i wonder wat we're doin...wif all de cones n bibs....so anw i ran like a dehydrated zombie...i tried to push myself to run wifout stopping...n i succeed miraculously...but den by de tym my body waz exhausted...wanna know y? we did Zero warm up! clever old fucker...made us ran wifout warm up n den made us do push ups sit ups n freaking star jumps.....lucky i escaped de first two thanx to my lose bladder....but i still haf to do de star jump....it waz freaking sickening...dun de teachers know dat star jump did nothing to our body except tiring it plus itz actually bad 4 de body....datz y in np we've stopped that star jumpz....sickening! i muz say i actually prefer de bitch's lesson then hiz...i wonder how hiz students haf suffered all diz while....anw de games were Pathetically dumb! we haf to knock dwn cones n pick ours up when their dwn...i actually participate fully! well mayb i'm despo 4 a few games....cuz all diz while we've bin runnning n jumping the hell outa us...I MISS BASKETBALL!!!!! man....itz bin mthz! anw it ended wod me tiring myself out 4 nothing....i actually starved myself during breaktime juz to save space cuz lata sya wanna bring me out n eat...ok so we did...oni de two of us dating togater...how romantic....except it wasnt evening...if not i wldve put on my best dress n we wldve had a candlelight dinner :Pahahahahahahax...
anw we went to de so called famous al-ameen 3 stops away frm sch....sya ordered mee goreng pattaya n me de rice version....oh well itz been a while since i ate dat thing....anw it waz hard 4 me to decide cuz i'm telling ya dat der waz like a hell lota choices to choose! n i cldnt make my mind until mins later...even my drink ...i cldnt decide fast enuf so de poor old guy have to served us twice...first 4 sya den 4 me...lolx...anw...it waz alot! i'm surprised i cld actually finished de whole plate by myself! lucky i saved space..if not i wldnt be able to stuff it all in...anw afta stuffing myself i waz like actually so darn hell full! i waz actually half panting while waiting 4 sya to finish...haix...twaz ymmy n super deli! muz come again n try wateva else on de menu..... :p slurp! anw thanx sya 4 bringing out to eat!
neyway home i was... wif a real stuffed tummy...n i cldnt reli eat wat my mom cookz...sighz...but hey i managed to stuff bubur kacang wif durian....heheh dat is a must n cannot be missed no matter wat.anw....went to sch wif sya todayz...ahax late gurl...made me leave syiQin go sch alone....kesian dier...in sch was pretty boring...i'm as usual so lost.......esp in econs....i actually went offline during econs...cuz nothing went inside......man i gotta stop diz..i havent even start doing last chap's stuff...n i gotta hand in diz fri...oh man........haix...
i decided to cancel goin 4 de big walk..heckz itz held on sun morn...i've an exam in de aftanoon...i dun wanna tire myself 4 nothin....n on sat ders diz alamku qalbuku mly drama frm sch held at de chevrons...itz at 8pm haix...itz gonna b boring wifout sya...i oni goin wif zanurah n diyanah oni..haix...wish theres more ppl....sadly noone wanna go....
well i have to go do de econs online thingy...n yah do my awaiting hs in my room as usual....c yaz.~
Posted at 5/19/2004 6:31:30 pm by GurL_AiN
Permalink
Friday, May 14, 2004
Wat an embarressing DAY!!
Oh greatz....yesterday waz like the MOST EMBARRESSING DAY I EVA HAD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!
Oh Gosh....maner nak letak muker ni.....malu malu malu!!!!! I mean i'm like so dun wan nobody outside clazz to know my One....n now itz like de whole world knows it! thanx a lot ppl!!
it all started durin recess time...i waz like putting my plate dwn to eat...n sya waz like,"eh ain ain...LuQmaN!!" n automatically i turned to c my One enjoyin hiz meal... awww how cute! but spitty i wanted to sit facing him whos on de oder row...but too bad sya sit redy.....so i haf to like constantly turn to c himz...haix....anw lata along came zanurah,lynette n joshz.....i told lynette ,'" eh lyntte C C...ders Man Man..sitting der eating!"oh well she juz shrugged it off...i mean she waz like spoz to be de one squealing wheneva she saw him....but who cares neway....den zanurah was like got up to fill her bottle....den she came back saying..."guess who waz der when i waz feeling my bottle?" she waz practically staring at me...n o curz de first guy came to my head waz LuQman! n itz him!....awww he waz taking a drink....how cute! den he waz like coming round de table at our side n den lynette start. " eh Luqman LuQmaN! come come come!!" waving at him.....n de oder guyz were like ""awwwww hes comin hes coming...come bring him here!"but kind lynette stop him b4 he came exactly beside me...ahahaz....den she talked to him...dunno watlah....i waz like heating up n my face waz like glowing red n i din realise until my frenz sez,"eh u crying ah?!"n i waz like NO!! i wasnt crying!!! i dunno how my eyes became so watery...cld it be tears of joy? but joy of wat? itz so darn embarressing!n josh waz like making it so obvious...fanning me like nobodys business....n de oders were like teasing me like hell...how cld i not stop myself frm feeling hot n my face glowing n my eyes watering?i'm not cryin!!! n den sya asked me to put de plates away while she got sumthing...n when i came back she waz actually telling the next table abt wat juz happeneed,"eh did u know ain cries when..." i waz like sya!! wat de hell r u doin????" n den she start telling mrs tan our home tutor abt it..i waz like sya?!!! tak cukup ke???Ya allah!! ok dat was dat.....den lynette told me she actually made it so obvious in front of luqman saying." eh stop it lah u guyz...shes practiically turning red n crying already" ...........omigod!
pas tu i waz like so quiet in clazz sitting der alone....den rudy ask,'ain nape ain..." i waz like ..i cant say anything accept offer him a smile.....n den zanurah behind me waz like," eh do u know dat ain cried when...." i waz like oh god....isnt it enuff arerdy??" sya chipped in her story too...oh boy diz gurlz de death of me...dah gitu dahlah....pas tu on de way to clazz mlayu....der were all still teasing me n i waz like shut up lah shut up lah.....n i hurried into clazz .....azlin n hidayah waz alredy der n i waz like " azlin !dayah! help me!der r still teasing me!!" den afta all came in ....azlin sez," eh tadi sape yg nangis eh ..." mak ai ......i waz betrayed!!!! cuz frm dat onwards...sya start again....now even worse...dgn cikgu skali n in front of oder clazz lagi....sak ah sya.....malu !!!! she was all like ," cikgu?cikgu kenal LuQman?" n den she say my full name n den she waz like announcing to de whole world dat i'm into him....how embarressed i waz.........i cant help glowing my face again...n my eyes started watering again.....n den sya dragged me to de toilet...(gd move) n den i waz like screaming my head off in de cubicle......aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh.... sicko!sicko!sicko!hishz.........dat waz relli de most sickening day eva.....
haiz.........today was no beta.....early in de morn i waz like kene serang dgn diarrhoea.....i went to de toilet 4 like 4 tyms!!! how sick........but still haf to run....still haf to do geog test.....still haf to attend econs lesson..haix.....n den de day din end too well either..i was like trying to pour chilli into de plastic for my siu mai....n den de chili dun wanna come out so i tilt it to de max until de lid opened n pour on my skirt ....n now my shoe waz like telah disalut dgn chili! wat a day! so sick so tired so dirty!.....haix....yah wat else to tok abt now? hw wat else.....sickening.....4get it! tml haf inst. day at s'pore conference hall....haix....okie least i think i can c him playing drums tml....i think....or if not juz getting out wif ma frenz uhz.....
okie i'm tired...signning off~
Posted at 5/14/2004 10:27:33 pm by GurL_AiN
Permalink
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
Ahahax Sya...diz onez 4 ya! u were like all complainin abt my fontz colour....diz ok?
Anyway...diz past few dayz waz............................ok? i dunno uhz..i mean like nothin special happened.....but sumthing did....not that itz so special or wateva but uhz...dunnoz..itz juz okok 4 me...nothin much to complain....nothin much to compliment.
On mon...watz on? 4gotz....tues? 4gotz....anyway i did remember goin to get sum sportz Stuff....one day...waz it mon or tues? dunnoz..i think itz on mon cuz i need it on tues....okok....heard twaz on sale....or sumthin...but twaz cheap........dragged sya along ...luckily she waz der cuz i waz like cant make up my mind which colour i want...anw i took grey....twaz not bad...twaz all pretty too...juz predicted dat de rubber wont last long...zwhy so cheap...but hey 10 buckz aint so dat cheap uhz! b4 dat aliff n josh were on de bus wif us n dey were like ok...."we wanna walk2 ard a while"...so dey came wif us....but hey dey cant go in de shop! dey've to stand outside n wait 4 us while we go choose....den met zanurah n ah pok .....dey wanna get sumthing i think....but dey were like " go eat lah!" n hey u know i wouldnt say no to de offer rytz? :P so off we went n ate in kfc....i got de shroom meal....n so did sya....i dun haf de slightest clue dat dat burger was stuffed wif mushroomz until i bought it n opened up de burger! sickening! how stupid waz i not to notice it?! anyway i waz kinda starved so i kinda ate it in a flash n finished first b4 de oderz....i cld actually eat anoder round but uhz...i'm not exactly dat loaded to like spend so much $$ on fast food....
den afta dat...we kinda walk n walk until we pass de library n sya n i slipped in wifout de oders noticing us....heheh....den met sya's mum.....so young sehz....her mumz 38 mines like almost 44 i think....anw...shes a librarian at west mall library....plus it waz my first tym to step into dat library.....pretty cool...oni dat de silence is pretty awkward....i know libraryz spoz to b quiet buut uhz J.p's library aint dat quiet at all....itz like so freaking quiet....n itz like so limited chairz n tables 4 us to use....anw got her mum to fotocopied rudy's paper 4 me to copy :P ahahahz nothin beta uhz?i mean whod actually bothered to do it all over again? i copied bof tymz anw.... den we went out...saw de oders at de oder side..gave em a wave...n slipped in to diz accessories store.....got hair cruncies or howeva u spelled it ...mines BLUE! as always....n sya's Pink....n bof of us got ear studs wif a Smiley Face! i luv Smiley Face!! i buy almost everything thatz got Smiley Face on it! i dunno why but next to Cat fotos..i'm crazy over Smiley Faces! :) den we head home in 187....i've to change buses afta dat....we walked to de bus stop n der were like so many ite guyz arnd der....felt kinda awkward but itz no wonder de ites arnd der....n most haf tapered pants...which i relli think relli sux! i mean do dey relli think itz nice? it relli is like a damn hell ugly thing! no offence but hey its de truth esp Fat guyz who've got tapered pants. u can actually c how awkward deir shape is....tsk tsk tsk.....
well anw todayz okie....got to c a lot of Luqman! :P yahs in de canteen n afta sch....n early in de morn...afta sch he waz like changed in diz batik shirt in which i found out twaz de angklungs uniform...lolx...kinda funny but hey if u'r into dat someone... anythings gonna look nice on him! lolx.....waited 4 Nurul 4 like 4eva! i reli hate waiting 4 ppl! n i do hate to make ppl wait! too bad n soriz but hey i haf to walk off first b4 i became one o de statues down der...i mean how wld u feel waiting der all alone looking at ppl walking past u...i shld've gone wif Sya man........n i cldve gotten home earlier.....anw met lynette n ah pok at de bus stop...yay! least derz sumone to go home wif....we got to west mall n walked arnd awhile....nette got sum peanuts n her oyster cake.....ah pok got sum pc games....me? i juz walked de hell outa me dwn der.....waz tired but i cldnt say no to an offer to waste tym at de mall,wld i?
haiz...hws waiting in de room.am spoz to finish lit essay by tml....econs tys by fri ..in which i'm like soo lost n dunno wat de hells goin on in clazz....haix...econs so hard.i wonder how to cope....oh shit! fri haf geog test.......fucklahz! so many stuff..yest waz like so slack.....i mean i do want some rest dayz dun i? oh shit!next week iz like mad exam redy!! fuck!fuck!fuck! oh man.....oh double shito! diz fri more running arnd de fuckin field!oh man de bitch redy warned us dat we'll be doin more running on fri! fri sux! can i like break some parts o my body so dat i can b absent on fri??o plz..i dun wanna go to sch on fri! itz gonna b a long sickening day cuz i've extra econs classes till 5...oh mi god...shitting hell! n den on sat ders inst. day at de s'pore conference hall....n den we haf to wear sch u....freako...i mean cant we like once in a blue moon wear our home clothes....not enuff dat 5 dayz a week we haf to
stick dose cloth on our body ..u want us to wear it 4 anoder 6th day? freakoz!
but not too bad ahz...i get to c my one performing ...hai.....hes like so talented....did u know i sent him a b'day msg n den he replied asking me qns....n den i replied saying stuff n he replied saying juz a pathetic one line," oh yah i remember...yah nice knowing u too" datz all? i mean how do u expect me to keep de conv goin wif juz dat??? n now itz like datz de end of my toking wif him.... stupidlaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......y dun u talk to me?is it dat u got so many gurls arnd u dat u cant even b bothered to continue de conv wif me? haix...i'm tryin to b positive here but uhz ur like so not helping me.....sick sick sick....how i wish i cld b like nette ...i can tok non stop n always haf sumthing to tok abt.but too bad i'm so not de talkative type....
okok enuff babbling........i need go bathe n finsih up de stupid hws...as if i can finish...Peace out~
Posted at 5/12/2004 6:40:33 pm by GurL_AiN
Permalink
Saturday, May 08, 2004
ooolalalala....
i'm like...'oh okie' todayz...i wanna blog yest but heckz twaz too late cuz we've got sum uninvited guests here....neywayz...abt yst..de day started horribly....i waz like kinda late den ususal cuz my tummy went nutz n i'm like stuck in de toiletz....n wen i wz dwnstairz,i waz like greeted by this storm.....boy waz i like so tak smgt btul nak gi sch... i waz betting dat i'm like gonna be drenched by the tym i reached de stupid stn. so der i waz braving tru de rain .....in diz case i shld say storm...okie i waz bravin tru de storm....bla bla bla....haix...den i passed de bus stop...well waddaya think i shld do? wait 4 de bus o curz!...but den de freakin bus waz like fuckin late n itz like itz so hopeless to wait 4 a fuckin late bus...i'd be later den eva....den sya msg me...sez shed wait 4 me at de ctrl stn...man.wat to do....qin waz aredy waiting 4 me at boon lay stn.diz iz so freaking wrong.i hate to keep ppl waiting...juz like i hate to wait 4 oder ppl...itz so against my principle to be late...i'm a punctual gurl man! i even set my watch like 20 min faster! haix...i waz like thinking today waz not my day again... den on de way my tummy went sick again...n i'm like gotta rush to de stn's toilet...haiz....wat a morn! den sya called me in da middle of my bz....kayz shes der redy...n i'm like all rushing...i called Qin....she missed de train n i 've to wait 4 her at J.e .....met Lynette on de platform.....board de train togather....i've to alight at J.e while sya ,lynette n zanurah continue to clementi to meet ah pok.haix....wait n wait n wait....n de train comez n out came adeline....n den QIn..so we go togather to sch...i'm like in diz rainy day...juz cuz i get out late....i'm like meeting so many ppl on de way....wow....n den when we get off i'm like rushing to de toilet again....omigod....diz is one fuckin day....
anw...i waz der first..i mean b4 de 4 gurlz...sya,lenette,zanurah n ah pok....hehe found out sya got stuck in clementi's toilet wah-wahed like me too :P lolx....n in de end dey haf to end up queing 4 a cabby.. Pe waz how shld i say? if b4 i wld say itz fuckin tiring torturing day....but hey 4 de first tym in life...i actually juz shrug off ..i mean my reaction waz like " twaz okie".....hey hey....we ran like 2...n anoder 2 round de field....n 3+3 rounds arnd de basketball n tennis court...but twaz still much running done....n den we haf to jump n more jump....until my legz were all wobbly n itz like screw loose frm my knee..i cldnt get dwn de stairs wifout grabbing de rails...manz...but i kinda think twaz great...mayb bcuz i like jumping?? but still i'm bad at my broad jump..u haf to score a 19+ to get an A.....goshz....i wld neva jump dat far....how i wish i'm like a grass hoper? kangaroo?sumthing that can jump far.....blah blahz blahz...
n den we voted 4 mrs arul....our econs cum discipline mistress...i mean shes de better among de worst amg all our sub teachers....hey n she got de most caring teacher award....thank us man! we like sang hapi mothers day 4 her...lolx....n den eric ng wasnt in sch to teach us geog...n der waz like no subt teacher...n we were like hanging abt de canteen doin nothing...wat luck...n den we were off when de bell rang...walked.....all de way out de gate greeted by de ice cream van!!yay!ice cream 4 me! n i made sya get one too.she got a corn cup n i got a choc chip cup..n den we were like crossing de road when sya sez," eh LuQmaN!" n i turned n der he was walking dwn wif hiz fren.....ooooooooooh wowz.....n den sya did de move....goshz....lucky 4 her she knew hiz fren n start toking n den she sez...
sya: u Luqman ryt?
him: ya...wats ur name?
sya: syahirah...n diz is AiN(pointin to me..)
him: (looks at me smiling n a wave) Hi...
Me: (managed a smile outa shcokz) Hello...
n den blah blahz blahz.....i mean dat waz like de one n oni conv btwn us...a hi n hello....well not too bad 4 a first one i guess....i waz like still stunned....ohohohoz....man sya ur one of a gurl!thanx gurl! i luv ya! hugz...hugz....
well datz actaully de best eventz dat day....ahaz...mayb twaz like nothing..but to me itz like one of the rarest moment eva...cuz it might be de first n last tym we had a conv...or wld u even say itz a conv...but hey itz sumthing.but i rembered in de morn in de train...lynettez sez she found out his folly...hes a playboy..i mean a wat??? he so doesnt portray dat kinda face..hes so angelic..but still u cldnt judge a bk by itz cover..but relli i so dun wanna believe it..but it cldnt be impossible either...haix...but even if i cldnt be hiz...well least can we like get to know each other beta?haix..
anw.... i finished me ice cream....n den ate sya's cuz she cldnt finish it....heheheh...told ya i'm a junk lover...den de buz stop waz like so crowded...sya got her bus first...n i've to wait sooo long alone der wif so many guyz...eeww...haix..but i got home wifout meeting no more ppl....datz sad....n den blah.blah.....showered ...ate....slp...did none o my hws....n chatted wif my siz n broz....okiez...datz all...twaz OK day...least beta den de usual...
well today i'm like spoz to do my hws....but heckz i'm like here blogging my head off...tml haf mad...oh man i 4got itz like may...n mad exams r like in 2 weeks tym n Gp exam wld be like at de end o de month....haix.....
well yahz...oh yah did i tell u i wasnt qualified 4 hockey? i was actually " thank God" but since i'm ccaless....i opted 4 ruby gurlz....neva imagined i waz like eva to play rugby but hey im like despo 4 a cca.anythingz 'available' wld do uhz....well cioaz 4 now...~
Posted at 5/8/2004 3:54:28 pm by GurL_AiN
Permalink
Monday, May 03, 2004
Surprise Surprise.... SO NOT! STRESS!!
Mommaaaaa.......Somebody save meeeeeee!!
wat luck waz today? suddenly like a load of garbage .. LOADS of Hw piled up on me....i'm still like not done yet for last weeks hw....omigod....omigoshz....oh wtf....i'm like wanting to scream my head off.........strezz strezz strezz....
yest i slept like oni a few hours.....i'm oni done wif de fuckin research at abt 1 pluz am! n i waz like exhausted searching 4 dumb stuff in which i've wasted tym cuz in de end....i cant find anything valid! n den i gotta know....diyanah told me dat u've gotta make ur own ptz.....i'm like wtf? again........shld've told me sooner....wasted like hours searching nothing.... but least i get to chat wif Zack.... at least somebodyz nice enuff to help me unlike my 'siztaz' huhz!! least yana helped a biiiit laaaaaaa.but hey dey still dun haf the ryt to walk off liddat wifout saying anything to me uhz! i mean hey juz say so if u dun wanna help but ....privately conversing amg urself n walking off wifout saying a thing? dun u think datz kinda rude 'SIztaz'??
neyway...Zack waz a real help n kinda saved my life.if not 4 him.i wld've not a wink o slp at all uhz.....Thanx Zack! wish i cld say ...i dunno 'lova ya'? i mean as in thank ya? but i'm gonna bet u dun particularly like to get cosy up wif gals no more r ya? haix....
neywayz....sch waz kinda sux tyoday.HE wasnt in sch today!!!! n itz so NOt my day!! awwww...itz like him being my gd luck charmer isnt der 4 me! aiyoh! what the fuck u toking ain? tsk tsk tsk.....shame on u.....get a life!
how??? today i juz found out i'm not qualified 4 hockey.....THANK GOD! i shld b happi uhz.but i'm not...de next big prob....I'M CCA LESS!! diz iz like de eva first thing in my life to be CCA less! i used to be like soooooooo damn fuckin committed in my cca...n now i'm cca less??? itz so hard to accept reality.....y? y ? y? i dun giva a damn abt hockey no more...i tell u dat....or i'm tellin ya again....hell to hockey....ur blind not to choose me.....man...itz not like i'm despo to join hockey...but i juz cant accept de fact that i'm cca less!! i haf absolutely NO idea wat to join now!! n i'm like darn hell worried.....i dunnoo i dunno i dunno....basketball? i duunnoo...i do want to play dat sport BUt....de ppl i'm gonnna bet r like sux...n i think itz conducted in Bartley....so itz gonna be like half my life every wed...i'm gonna spent travelling to n fro Bartley....hey 4get it...but den wat? netball? de bitchz taking it! n i cant risk my life in der! i'm gonna die if i join! in pe shes already like torturing us....n if in netball? shes gonna expect 200% effort...haiz! wat else??? i'm like made to do sportz but itz so little choices!....volleyball is so outa qn!! i hate dat game since like eva! n tennis juz sux....man!!!! wat to join!!!! clubz?? sooooo boooring!! Mcs? i'm like so bad in acting? Angklung? i'm like double de bad in music.!! i 've no idea how to read those tauge notes...bla bla bla..de oni advantage is ders My One dwn der...but itz not like itz guaranteed hes gonna b mine if i join.....plus....i'm like dunno hopeless in music....library? i'm not gonna b stuck wif dat A.S all day...certainly NOT! photographic juz so troublsome....n i'm honna bet itz boring....tarian? wat a joke....i've like NO experience in cultural mly dance AT ALL! hahahz...i'm so not Miss Graceful.. i told ya.all i can do is sportz!! but wtf? ders like so limited choices!! even if u say itz still a variety...i've like missed all de fuckin try outs in all de games.....luck! luck! luck!
haiz, i juz dunno.....my mind is sooooo messed up.......boy i do need a time out.....nowadays.i dunno..i'm recalling my sec sch dayz.i'm like so misssing em.........i miss my frenz.......i wanna tok to em...i wanna do all dose stuff togather like b4.!!! i wanna! i wanna!i wanna! sniff..sniff.......i still missed my baby! i lost my water bottle last fri! n i've no idea where the hell it went! n i cant find it anywhere! haix which despo freak steal it?? curses on u!! n i've got to like spend anoder 6 precious buckz on a a new one....if not i'd be spending 2 buckz a day juz 4 buying green tea!
sumbody online leh! i'm like in need to tok to sumone n complain!!hw is so waiting 4 me in my room.....tml pe...luckily 1 period oni.but hey it cld be worse den lasts week....aiyoh....be positive ain.....wat the hell! wat the fuck is the use of training ur body when u cant use it in a cca?! fuck!!!!! let me join sumthing! sumthing that is my kind of thing!! but wat!!!! answers! come to me!!! ahz....i'm starting again...i'd beta go b4 i'm totally freaked out! PiZ OUt ~
Posted at 5/3/2004 6:42:31 pm by GurL_AiN
Permalink
Sunday, May 02, 2004
Haiz...wat a week.so swayed...
itz been a real fuckin week so far.....real swayed....n real tiring.... i can oni remember up till wed's events...okie so on wed...ders a fuckin boring seminar that practically rocks me to slp! wat waz i wasting my tym der 4? oh yah....waz forced to go...fuckin teachers....do dey relli think we relli benefit frm that fuckin seminar? i waz like already asleep on de bus back to sch oni to wake up to find hockey waiting 4 me.....fuckz....
i waz like a half zombie hands up walking into de sch gate...climbing up de stairs.... changed into pe attire....climbed de stairs dwn......n git my name dwn in de list.wtf....i waz actually hating hockey 4 makin me come...n not oni dat i've to go tru diz try out thingy....well wtf? i've like no experience in hockey at all...n here they r like wanting experienced ppl..how bias can they be? anw de training waz like relli sux.... cuz we haf to like sprint 4 nothing n i waz like straining my muscles n now itz cramping like hell!! n do sum dumb dribbling wif de fuckin ball dat left a memorable mark on my hand... fuck it...dey even teach us how to hold de fuckin stick...n i'm tellin ya itz like a retard way of holding a fuckin stick...so fuckin nonsense man.....i waz like sweating my self 4 nothing yahz....n it ended late fuck em even more...if i dun qualify in their list ,thier fuckin suckers 4 de rest of their lifez! but hey itz not like i'm dying to be n der! i dun even know y i put hockey as my first choice!! i'd be a hell thankfull if i dun qualify at all.....itz practically a sickening way of getting ur body cramped....whens de fuckin results gonna be up...i'm already thinking of quiting already.but wat if i got in? watto do.juz play along uhz......fuckz...
n den on fri waz pe...wat a fuckin day i had.my WORST eva pe training EVA had! de bitch wants us to run 9 fuckin laps ard de fuckin field! imagine dat! even 2.4 is oni 8 rounds....wtf? n itz broken up into sets of 1/2/3 rounds per tym...n if we din fisnish in the set tym.....we gotta do 10 push ups on de spot....fuck u la bitch! wat fate i got unda u....afta dat we haf to do pull ups n sum stupid hand excercise on de fuckin bench....dat waz like de last straw ..... i got into class wif fuckin shivery hands n legz...its beeen like years since i hadf diz kinda training.i gotta admit i've slack 4 de past few years but hey cant we like start slow? fuckin bitch...think we Wonder woman isit? i havent finish econs...n i cldnt start writing cuz my hands were like...i dunno....stiff n shivery....man i waz like on de verge of crying....i havent finish econs essay in which i've to complete in within de next two periods n here i waz ...cldnt write...i dunno how to put into gd words but i waz relli feeling sick at de tym.,i'm tellin ya if der waz a test of sumthing worse i wld've flooded de bathroom..not wif my Wee-Wees but my tears....juz a bit more fuckin pressure n i'm a crying machine...
well datz over....n on sat ders like a family gathering to celebrate de May annivesaries n b'dayz..my siz got to celebrate her april b'day too...n she got a fuckin pretty bangle n a couple of 10 buckz frm aunts.....how fuckin unfair!!! mine waz in march n i got nothing! not relli nothing but as in i dun get to celebrate it the way my siz getz to....i cant help feelin jealous.who wldnt...i'm trying to be happi 4 her but hey .......u cant help feeling dat way.........haix......wat luck....
today i'm like spoz to go madrasah n haf my test.....but fuck to hell wif it.i'm like oni hafal 3 outa 8 surahz.....n i wld be like wasting my tym if i go so i din go uhz.....here i am stuck at home.. completed sum o my hws....ders research yet to be done.haix....ders neva a rest in life ...n i'm gonna bet itz gonna b a hell lot tougher in de upcomin times ...madrasahz gonna haf itz mid yeras at de end of may i think....wat luck... ....i'm like totally lost in studies der.....n here in MI....ders more tests to come....
wat to do....mayb i'm destined to come here .do my stuff.n get out...cant wait when itz tym to grad.keep on dreamin freak .u've got ur As to do....well c yaz ....i'm gonna get myself stufffed....adioz~
Posted at 5/2/2004 9:25:47 pm by GurL_AiN
Permalink
|
|
|
|
|
HëR~
ÃïÑ.
NickZ:SweetSimPLiciTy
PaNiC QueeN
DepReSSeD BLuE
Ag3:Sweet-18
ALwaYz:SmiLeZ.Laughs.Jokes.CrapZ.CraZy.Emo.ProCraStiNate.SeNsiTiVe.SpoRtY.ShY.
LüVz~
CatZ.KitteNz. NaTuReZ. FloWeRz. ButtErFlieZ. CLouds. RaiNbOw. Da PheNoMeNaL. ThriLLeRZ. TraVeLLiNG. AdVeNTuRe. Ice-CreaM.ChiPz.CHoCz. CooKieZ.PizzAz. CheeZE. BrOwNieZ. SpoRtZ. BasketBaLL.SleeP.My ADiDaZ BottLe. FriendZ. FAmiLieZ. WaN.
Wishy..wishy..wishy..Grant me dat wish..
tt..pretty $69.90 skirt at jennyfer..wahahaha...soo exp!
Olivia's CD..sigh...
A Nice BounCiNG BasKeTBaLL...missed it sooo... :(
Let GO Of My DEpressed Side.
PRoFiLeD MUA
|
