haix...haix...haix...how can i stop myself frm sighing? i'm like totally down this whole pathetic week. seriously....i'm like so spiritless n like relli not myself at all...down down down.....now where did i contract the 'down' sickness?bcuz itz like so not me...is it? bcuz haix...i'm juz simply totally DOWN!

i cant recalll wat happened on wat day...cuz i juz dun wanna remember....but i haf to tell...i haf to say it out...bcuz keeping it inside is simply killing myself. i'll save de 'best' 4 last yah...

anw...i haf no idea y i'm like so lethargic or howeva u spell it diz week...cuz i practically slept in eric's lessonS....seriously...itz not like i find it boring or wat bcuz i cld practically stare at him 4 hrs even if i'm slpy....but but but...diz week waz like so entirely diff....i'm ...i dunno how to say....juz not being myself.u guys think so? is it becuz of the pmses? bcuz i dunno....itz been like yrs i had diz thing n i dun particularly rmber experiencing sumthing like diz....i mean....i dunno wat i mean....kinda like being Angelo in Lit Bk...Qning myself...except this isnt caused by any sexual desires...i dun even know wats causing me being like diz...

i told ya ...i kinda haf a misunderstanding wif alif de oder day....42nately itz k by now...but den again...diz guy is like getting on my nerves 4 no reli big reason...i mean hes always de S.S kind of boy n sings like nobodyz biznez n drama like real sick...but diz week i'm juz like simply totally pissed off wif hiz every whine n complain to like almost everybody....juz diz morn..he was all 'bragging' he got fined 30 bux 4 eating at de mrt stn....i mean datz too bad lah ...u admitted itz ur fault...n u practically told  de whole world abt it but den i juz feel dat u r like diz freaking annoying pest.....desperately seeking unwanted attention! sori but hey itz like sickening true.

wat else happened? today...i was kinda changing in de toilet....n diz gurl waz like toking so annoyingly 'act cute' style dat i cant beleieve i actually mimicked her n mocking her under my breath! i mean...when was de last tym i eva did that??? godz..wats gotten into me? i got so pissed off so easily that....i dunno....i feel offended at de slightest thingz that happened.......i try not to show but my expression juz doesnt want to shine...till joel actually sed," hey u got the natural unhappy look that u actually fitz the character in the play.." i was like....wat the hell??? i know he wasnt serious but hey u gotta understand me...i cant be smiling every second of the day?  tok abt drama.........

today was freaking n sickening sick! haix...i haf drama n NDP rehearsal todayz....i went 4 drama first n got the newly edited script....i found out that my lines was actually cut.....n being the main char....i actually haf like less then 5 lines to say then minor characters....i was like...uh...ookie...i mean ....wats going on? de main characters spoz to like juz display facial xpressionz n get to say less? oh well mayb dat happens...ok datz dat....but afta telling us to get into de characters...i got into mine....quite redy to act it out...but i need to pee first so i got up frm my corner n saw azlin telling ms chan dat we got de NDP rehearsal....i was like...so fast redy? gosh...time flies...spitty i cldnt act it out even once ...oh well mayb next tym den...but de thing is i'm de main char. n those freaks juz cldnt afford to wait that ms chan actually say diz like nobody biznez as if i'm not there...as if i'm like totally invisible...or she sed it bcuz she wants to make me feel....'terasa'?? when she got to know that i need to go ...she actually sed to de seniors in charge ," u know u have to reconsider ur casts...u still have like other gurls u know...like Usha...etc etc..." i was like....do u haf any idea how dat remark haf actually arrowed me? do u haf any idea how shocked i was to hear u say that so causally? as if i dun haf the right to haf my say? i mean....like...omg.....i was numbed 4 seconds on the spot that i cld actually stood n stare at u 4 hrs n be like totally dramatic.........do u haf any idea how u broke my heart saying that????? my godz....i cldnt believe this was actually happening.....it nvr crossed my mind that i cld actually be kicked off juz because i haf to go 4 a stupid NDP rehearsal....i mean dat NDP thing is like going to end afta national day n practice cld like resume as usual if u still conduct it on fri...bcuz cca day is spoz to be like on wed,..n too bad u conduct the workshop on wed n u pushed our drama practice on fri....n u didnt even consider if we haf other activities or not....u didnt even care...u cared to get dat fucking thing going on n finished wif it. juz 4 one pathetic rehearsal i've to attend n ur kicking me off my post. wat right do u call this? n this is like no ordinary stupid student....this was a teacher....a damn fucking teacher speaking!!! omg! do u realize wat diz actaully means to me? i mean i always wanted to cabot drama n stuff but ...i nvr did it b4 n it doesnt mean i dun take my job seriously....ur seniors r de ones who picked me.......dey wanted me to be de main char....dey didnt even ask me if i want or not. day made me...acted...feel de char....be de char.....am the char.....n i always tried my best to do wat u want.....but afta dat day full of critism...i do wonder if u disliked my acting...i might actually think u hate it bcuz u didnt 4 a second give me a chance .....if u did ,u wld perhaps say...or try to do sumthing thatll make me stay n act....even 4 a while....but nooooooooooo....u were speaking like a laser n not thinking twice saying dat Usha cld be de next me. i mean.....do u even think of wat we feel?or do u even haf proper feelings like a human? mayb ur too into drama that u 4got ur human sensitivity...

how upset i was to know that.....also b4 dat  azlin was bursting into tears when we finished lunch ...she was complaining abt politics in drama....n i nvr knew it cld come as bad as this...my godz......y.........y....is politics so widespread?i hate it so…. L I’m actually almost in tears if the others didn’t haf a seat to tok abt other stuff when I cld get a hold of myself…haix…seriously…I was so actually proud of myself 4 getting a main char 4 my very first day of acting….i mean this might nvr happened again…n after getting my role…I’m going to get kicked off? Sya sed u haf to haf commitment…….u tok abt commitment? Am I not committed enuf? Wat else do u wan me to do? Its not like I absent myself on purpose…I had a reason! I had a freaking gd reason u bitch! Unless of curz u simply dun like my acting n u so want me to be replaced! Y dun u juz say so u sickening arse!bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

haix...

since yest...i didnt think my dayz were going very well..

yest was sun....madrasah...hmm...woke up kinda early to finish my mly compo...geez...i havent even bathe till like 11.30...when at last i ate some cereal 4 my double late breakfast b4 rushing off to de bathroom to get redy 4 madrasah...wahz....when i reach there...i bought like 3 thingz costing me like $3.40 altogather....hmmm....i dun rember spending dat much on sundayz...but i was starving...i bought like one large bun...a fruit tart n diz thing dats an indian delicacy...oh well....i'm like reli can blieve i bought all dose....well no doubt i cld finish it in a flash but uh....realli i shldnt b spending so much on sundayz...oh well mayb diz tym itz an xception...anw clazzez r boring s usual...slept like dunno how many times..if not literally ,i dun think i listened oso....hax..bad me....muz change ain...n den lata when we were dismissed....yana was all not feeling well...haix...poor gurl...dunno watz wrong wif her but i flagged a taxi 4 her...i mean well...itz safer isnt it? dun wan her to collapse in de middle of nowhere....hope shes ok now...

haix...mon blues....happens today....actually wasnt dat blue during de morn. but afta home tutors period...de day juz got kinda worse.i'm like....hey i'm having my freaking pmSes....which i particularly dislike....cuz i'm like so in low-spirits today....n den dat ****ing Bill made us change seats again...i mean hey i dun care if u change pplz seats but as long as i'm hapi wif mine ...i'm like datz ur prob..but since today...u were like in an xtra mood of doing xtra jobs today of jumbling our seating positions...i xtremely despise u 4 dat! u freaking know y bcuz u changed me seat! not oni dat...u split me away from sya! n not oni dat....u put me to seat to sit wif a freaking silent boy wif two anti-socialz seating in front of me...n i'm like stuck wif silent zombies on my left n front....since i'm like seating at de back most row...behind me was like....spaces n wallz...n sya was like a table away from me on my right....i'm like....diz iz complete torture! i cant sit wif zombiez!!! i know i'm de quiet type....but surely u dun haf to classify me wif dem!!!!! 4 godz sake....change my fucking place! n i so hate to sit at de back...i mean all diz while i'm ok wif it cuz i'm sitting wif sya...but since now i'm not...i'm hating it even more! n itz all bcuz of u!....u freaking one hell of a sickening arse! u sed u wan more results by changing our places...LOOK HERE PAL...HOW DE FREAKING HELL CAN U EXPECT ME TO IMPROVE MY FREAKING MARKS BY PUTTING ME AT DE XTREME BACK ROW OF THE CLAZZ WIF NO COMMUNICATIONS BCUZ I'M LIKE COVERED BY ZOMBIES AROUND ME!????????!!!!! SICKO!

godz.....i was flaming mad man at de pt of tym...i'm sure i think my face waz darn black ...frowning at de freaking balloon..i was like in xtremely no mood to go tru de dayz lessons at all...cldnt u read me? i'm being like double xtremely quiet .....n i juz cant force a sincere smile...since dat freaking period...haix....well u know wif my pmSes n dat fucking event...i was so simply in no mood 4 jokes...n aliff joked wif me at de wrong tym man...sori boy but no jokes wif me today...i tell u i take wat u sed seriously...i'm like ...MALAS NAK LAYAN........faham?! so quit stupid jokes wif me today..n maybe 4 de next few dayz too.haix....wats wif me manz? i cant blieve  myself...wat the hell haf i done today? juz had a quarrell wif my clazzmate? my godz...how hard haf i tried to avoid doin dat......i mean i had done dat b4 n i regret it cuz being in de same clazz is so hard to avoid dat person....haix.....say sori? 4 wat? it aint  my fault in de first place..........aaaaahhhhhhhhhh to hell wif it all.........

anw...i actually nod off to slp in geog clazz....my godz ...in erics clazz!!!! i cant blieve that.....shity thingz...i'm like so sick cuz he like actuallly walked to my table n told me that i've a  few more minz....hax! wat luck today. simply sway.....

anw afta dat most of de gurls went to B.K to eat lunch....sya ,dayah n m got de whopper meal each...n  woa....were we like totally fueled to de max. n den we accompanied nette n nitz to mrs arulz hse...whoa i'd luv to admit dat her doggyz so adorably cute! spitty i cant touch dose things..oh yah...i kinda like it cuz i get to hear mrs arulz voice again! itz like i missed her a lot! Wahahah n den when we were abt to go....her son came home...n we gurlz were like double stunned looking at de dreadlocked haired black guy......n we cldnt even wait till we arrived downstairs b4 screaming our heads off.....my godz i think the whole level cld practically hear us...gosh how obvious can it get.

oh well........did a bit of sum stuff...now waiting 4 an inspiration to appear so dat i can feel up de empty paper wif sum sajak to be handed in tmr....my godz...diz iz so double pathetic.anw ciaoz..hopez tmrz better 4 me...oh plz plz plz...

huaix...itz been a looong exhausting weekz...tried to blogz but simply cldnt afford de tym...been so bz wif stuffz...at last allz over 4 now...phewz..

on tues..

had my 2.4 napfa running test...i aredy knew we were gonna haf it but i actually refused to believe it n den caught me quite unexpectedly dat i was actually running that day....when i was reli not feelin enthu abt it at all...haiz...i tried to ran...but  i cldnt do itz...but when i  found out my timing..i was cursing myself all the way...i failed my 20secs!!!!! my godz...if oni...haix...i was practically half dead when i finished it...haix...means i'm gonna haf to rerun again....haix...sickening thing...anw later we had our dance rehersal..kinda enjoyed it cuz u know wat?...huaz.. so far onli our clazz've been enjoying other clazzes performances cuz we were practically dancing to their music.. .ahah...but ended quite late...n even so we had to go to Daiso to get de paper fanz....which waz reli a last min thing....me,sya, nette n mena went to get em...i got myself a towel...not juz a towel...a SMILEY FACED TOWEL!!!! yay!!!! twas all smiling at me dat i fall in luv wif it dat i took no 2nd totz abt buying it...hauhauhau den nette found small postcardz wif KITTENZ piCZ on it!!!!woohooo!!! anything new abt kittens or catz shld nvr be left on de shelves!!! itz a must to have it!!! of curz i took em n nette got dose wif dog pics on it...huahuau...den we got lotsa blue fanz...which of curz im always game 4 it wheneva itz BLUE! hauhauhau....den went home wif sya....on de way dayah called to remind us to  get sum hair clipz juz in case 4 de 'sanggul' tmr....oh welll dropped by in Aries ...grabbed em..i got myself a clourful hair bandz..itz  nicez!...n got myself home so late at nytz....huaiz...ended my tues tired out...first we had our tiring run...den a neverending dance rehersal...n den shopping at imm...goshz.....well have to be ready 4 tmrs big day....

on wed..

wokay....wed...we started wednesday wif a very freaking start! i was like nvr expected myself to be late 4 sch...but hey i wasnt late...sya wanted me to wait 4 her...so ok..like usual i waited 4 her at de stn...but de unusual thing was that..shes freaking late! n den even so we cld actually made it on tym if de freaking buz was not dat freaking packed!! my godz....i think the buz cld actually pass 4 a big can of sardined students in der....actually even double de amount! i'm like...ders no way we cld sqeeze in dat freaking buz...me ,sya,dayah n azlin whom we met on de way...decided to take a cab...n den shahidah joined us too...we braved tru de rain....half drenched...trying to flag a fuckin cab...tried diff positionz on de road n not a single cab stopped by 4 us poor gurlz! wat luckz...we were like alredy so late n in de end we haf to take de 66 buz which like stopped so far away frm sch..n we found aung  n eva at de bus stop...n den we walked to sch togather... boyz...diz is like one gd start of de day...haix...i cldnt break record of not being late 4 sch...so much  4 trying so hard in sec sch...i broke my record ...late in my first year in MI..huax.....anw twaz not a very long day but hey my clazz dancers were like so restless...unable to control their nervousness....me...i'm quite surprised i was cooled all de way until we got all dressed up 4 de comp. anw during recess...amidst all the chaotic ppl in clazz....my drama mate zheng yang is it? oh well hes looking 4 me saying dat some freakz wanna c me...i was like wat de heck....kinda feeling sick oredy... scared wat'd i did wrong...de drama ppl were all getting ready to board de buz 4 de syf rehersal that day..n den diz ms chan...was all surveying me wif diz odd look...n den diz naresh was all like..." shes neat ryt? shes one of our leading actresses in de pre-u 1 play..." n den she came up close to me saying..." u r in drama ryt? ur gonna stay wif us 4eva ryt? if u quit drama ....i'm gonna kill u..."i was like...uh watz diz? dramatisizing on like nowhere....n i'm like totally clueless der....n den she told me dat i'll be a sch rep to receive a prize on stage ...tmr is gonna be de full dress re...she sed shes gonna borrow me her court shoes...or howeva u spell it...oh well ok....i juz nod my head looking so blur n ran back up to class...azlin n nithiya was like...wat happened....cuz i was all like panting ...n i told em de news...they were all like...y she huh? thats the qn i've been asking myself! y me outa all ppl? i juz went 4 abt 2 sessions n i'm chosen to be a drama rep 4 de sch? Den wat abt dose who joined drama way b4 me? isnt it a bit....unfair? i was feelin quite  dwn cuz ...i'm reli confused wif all diz thing...haix...anw during econs lesson...de dancers were like extremely restless cuz de next period was de competition aredy....dat we actually asked ms low to release us early so we had tym to change n stuff....even so we were so rushing dat we actually 4got our shawl! my godz...n den we made it up using de  fanz...luckily...phew....oh well...everybody was practically shaking  b4 our turn...den we got onstage...danced it all  out n finished it off...huax...a great load off da shoulderz...but de sick thing is ...we wdlnt be getting our results till fri...haiyah....n den afta dat...we had lotsa fototaking sessions....cuz itz like so rare to c each other so dressed up like that...n den i think itz our clazz again thats so into  diz kinda thing cuz i dun c no other clazzez doin it...oh well...afta dat washed away all my make-up...huahau...cuz i'm gonna haf cca later...but den azlin n nitz sayz dat we dun haf a cca cuz de others went 4 syf already...n i waz like wat luck...we chilled in de canteen first n they were all toking abt quiting drama...n feeling inferior n stuff...n i was like...omg....i'm feeling kinda bad already....i'm like....4 one thing...u guyz r gonna leave me alone in drAma wif unknown ppl....n ..haiz...i dunno how to say lah....anw we juz went home...haiz...at least i cld go home early...actually wanted o do my hws...but ended up sleeping de whole day....

thurs..

hmmm wat happened on thurs? nothing much reli...except i nod off to slp during my srp period..n practiaclly de day was full of double periods till i was like simply so sick of it....during m.t period...i was practically mad at sya 4 relli punching my back dat i think practically de whole claz cld hear...hax...wat a bitch,...i'm like wats ur probz? so restless....keep throwing me bits of paper at me...hax...was spoz to write a compo...i cldnt get a thing outa my head...i'm gonna haf to thank zheng yang n naresh a lot 4 saving me outa de clazz..dey called me out 4 de syaf thing...huax...i actually got scolded 4 being late...i'm like late? nobody told me de tym...helloo?oh well...de teacher didnt bring her court shoes as promised...so juz went off to watch VJC N ACJC  compete wif MI. twaz a full dress rehersal oni but hey i gotta say der r gd...like duh ryt? dey all clinched gold award...i dun know exactly y dey compete again when they already got gold award 4 syf...hmmm i found out twas held at chinese high...a sch i actually slept in b4....itz a sec 3 camp...u know camp in their field...imagine waking up in de morn....got free audiences frm dose ppl going to sch...giving us curious stares...whoa...anw ...like blah blah...allz done...juz haf to get ready 4 tmr....i was spoz to wear a white blouse n a blazer n a tie...in which i had practically none of these thingz...ok de blazer n tie gonna be borrowed...n so was de shoes...so means i hafta get de blouse myself....so i went home first cuz i was exremely starved n tired...den went out wif mum to j.p to get dat pathetic blouse at nyt...huaix...

fri..

haix.....i wanted to end de day happily....but sumthing juz haf to crop up to spoil de day...

anw i wanted to blog 4 de past few dayz...simply cldnt find de tym....haix...on wedz....had my very first day of speech n drama....i got to taste how itz like to act! weeeee.....de first tym i got to know de ppl der...i think kinda lame uh....esp when dey ask u to walk frm one end to de other simply saying a word or a phrase frm high to low pitch....i reli think datz pathetic,...well i was actually thinking...no i was actually sorta regretting dat i joined diz juz to experience diz crap...until abt hrs later did i get to try out de real serious stuff...kebetulan....dat day dey were auditioning 4 de year 3 apprciation day play... so everybody haf to say out de lines...blah blah....de bitchy lines were like reli nice uhz...but den oh well i guess i'm not built to be bitchy n i cant make myself to act bitchy bcuz not even halfway tru her dialogue...de guy sed....ok thank you.   manz...it can actually be  quite irritating when ur like trying ur best to b de char n den while ur on de high...reading de lines...dey juz sed thank u n u haf to stop....u get wat i mean? oh well...i guess datz de rules of being speech n drama...anw...everybody haf to try out de 3 char....n guess wat....i was chosen de top 3 to being de main char!!! i was like...seriously?? diz is like so my first day n i was wat? top 3 to being de leading role? hey...wat a great achievement! i'm like reli beginning to enjoy diz thing! hehehehe...but den de serious thingz happening too fast..de senior was like offing de lightz...telling us to close our eyes n feel de char...de way he made us do was like kinda cool dat i reli felt sad n lost like how the char shld feel...n den i was like...oh my god ...am i crying? ok maybe not literally...but almost....bcuz when he ask me to read de lines...my vioce was shaking....geez...n afta all dat crap...de indian gurl got eliminated n den afta trying again...de chi gurl got eliminated too....dat leaves me...me being de leading char 4 my first day of acting in my entire life! wohooo! but i tend to get distracted easily esp when ppl start laughing...n a joke was up...n den i lost conc...n 4get my char which was spoz to be blur...n lost...which is like reli practically melaaa.. blur gurl...n i oso haf trouble memorising de lines! wahahahah! ok end of first episod of my dramatic drama..

den today...huax...first thing in de morn...reli hectic...johan n luqman was like came to our clazz...n de moment luqman steps in...everybody was shouting...ain! ain! ain! omg! wah lau eh....my face was super embarressed sia...n den he asked 4 hidayah,azlin n me...n we were like so havoc juz to c dem outside....dey sed dat we were chosen 4 de parade thing n we haf to meet em on fri or sumthing...i wasnt quite hearing...oh well cant blame me..i was practically on clouds 9 standing in front of luq...but de thing is none of us gurlz hardly heard anything that the guyz sed!!!!!omg! all 3 of us nvr looked into their faces at all n none of us got de correct info!!my goshz...tsk tsk tsk...gurlz!! haiyaaa...den pe was super...i mean as in..practically everybody was praying dat it'll rain...n den it reli did ryt on tym sum more! dat we assembled in de hall....we oni did inclined pull up n broad jump....haiyah....1.5hrs juz 4 de pathetic 2 stationz...haiyah....2.4 is gonna kill me! de ones i did was all in de Cs grade....my godz...i'm gonna hit a bronze in de least or even a nil if i failed 2.4....haix...n den we had our dance rehearsal on stage...which is practically pathetic n dat hadi sc is so reli freaking 4cker...my godz...as if hes so much beta...i mean none of us wld be as energetic n lifely performing 4 a pathetic rehearsal in which almost no one attended...n de full dressed one is on Tuesday in which we r oni planning to get de costumes on mon...haf to go to tekkah juz to get it.. myz....haix...juz hope we'll at least win top 3 positions lah...i mean we practically practised like mad...until internal conflicts juz rises...haix...diz is so life....nvr free of such stuff...anw we were like pissed off wif almost everything that me,sya ,dayah,azlin n aliff when to b.b Mc.D.....to chill...we got food...ate 4 abt less den an hr...n sat 4 hrs simply gossiping! my godz..diz is quite de first tym attending a gossip session which is like super long dat we ended at 6+pm...myz...phew...but think abt it...itz reli kinda true..i nvr relly tot it dat way b4...but since itz been sed dat way den...its a wow n a reli? 4 me...hmmm....datz abt all...

oh yah tmr parents day...dad called frm workplace asking if i got any probs n dat he dun wan any surprises tmr...i was like...i cldnt tell him on de spot dat i failed 2 subz...didnt get an A pass n haf to c de V.p....haix...he juz haf to find dat out himself tmr...hear techno..hearlaaa......juz numb myself up....am spoz to do hw...but reli feeling super tired n super slpy....n de bed is so super inviting n i so super wanna outz~

a haix? or a yay? simply not surez.....

anw yest was mon....youth day!my clazzmates were like so eager to go sentosa....i was like....uh cld i even go....but since sya was like..alaa..juz ask lah...i was ok.....asked me parents n den got deir permission....n den sya was like i dun think i'm going..haix....

anw we met at harbour front...i was actually so 'kwai' cuz twaz kinda my first tym seeing a two coloured seat in de train...n de seat was so comfy...n de rest was like ..haiyee..no wonder... ahax... oh well...cldnt blame me...i'm kinda like a mtn tortoise uhz...anw when we reached der....still have to wait 4 like hrs 4 de latecomers...haix...how i detest latecomers...urgh! n den josh got hiz frenz along too...like grace n joel...who were practically smooching all de timez...like nobodyz biznez...n amanda was like der oso...ahax...oh well how blind can she get to c dat sum of my clazzmates disliked her..n she was all jolly all de way...wahahah...de oni malays was like me n hidayah...oh wellz...got into de shuttle buz....n ruled de backs seat...so chaotic...i mean u know our clazzmates...dey juz cldnt take a yes 4 silence....huax....we were like all de way so noisy..n den still have to pay 3 bucks 4 de entrance fee....den we board de monorail....yay! itsz been like years since i visited sentosa n sit in dat pretty cute thing...i stick my head out all de while...luving de wind in my face....n my view was great....poor hidayah cuz she sat on the other side n saw nothing except bushes n more bushes...hauhauhau..oh well i luv de ride...n we got dwn at Palawan beach...we walked like across de bridge to the SOTHERN MOST POINT OF ASIA! i was like ...wow...i juz knew dat part of the island was reli de tip of Asia... ahahah...de otherz swam n bathed...in which i watched in envy....haix...wished i cld swim too...itz so boring sitting n doing nothing except stuffing myself wif food...n hidayah wasnt bathing too...we practically sat togather almost in silence...cuz i've like nothing to crap wif her since i was too longing to go into de waters...haix...den fir msged me asking if my clazz got gathering at sentosa...i was like yah n where r u? he was in siloso....ohoho...i actually wanted a bike ride...but de rentinh shop i so far at siloso derz..anw ..oh yah 4got to say dat while waiting 4 de latecomers...saw shazni n some mly galz....goin sentosa oso.....he didnt realize who my clazzmates were when dey were waving at him....until when he saw me... n gave me dat blank face....woa....dat means shock or 4gotten abt me? ahahah...anw not long b4 dey were in de waters...it started to pour...we ran 4 covers,...some were still  in the waters...i was like hey itz like raining....n u guys lived too long isit? wanna die so fast?haiyaaaa...when dey saw lightning strike...den dey start stumbling 4 land.... hauhauahua...it was like real raining hard uhz....we were like unda de twin towers...which relli isnt anything like shelters cuz we were still wet....bhind it was de ocean...which was like so fierce wif itz ferocious waves...i was kinda impressed...oh well....nature gurl loves nature...its relli cool uhz...xcept o curz it can be deadly too...de others were like...hey ain...draw your sampan! wheres ur sampan?lolx...reli ders a tym when my drawn diagram of a volcanic island was featured wif sampans n lotsa fishes....well u know...elaboration ...lolx...cuz we were like so stranded on a pathetic piece of land...n nobody can like get help of sumthing cuz u still haf to cross de bridge in which i dun think nobody dares to...even sum ang mohs were like all crowded togather unde der...n joel start singing wif his guitar in which de ang mohs joined in too..wohohohooo...real rowdy bunch too ehz..ahah...n i was like....no wonder de rain doesnt wanna stop...n it didnt! omg we were like stranded der 4 hrs!!! which i lost cout...de rest were actually freezing...but strangely i felt cool...i mean i wasnt actually freezing in de assumingly freezing wind....ist cuz i've too much fatz?? woa... n den at last when de rain subsided....der actually rushed into de waters again...woa...but nette wanna get clean so i accompanied her go n wash up...n while waiting i saw lotsa things in de toilet...i mean it may b a nothing surprising  sight 4 u guyz....but me seeing a woman actually naked frm head to toe isnt a common thing..i saw abt 3 women naked afta showering n stepping outa cubicle completely naked....i was like omg....itz like nobodyz biznez like dat....i almost saw eveything xcept  her front ass...waahaha...i shld say itz like totally disgusting! i mean hey its not like ur grandfathers toilet...get a towel u weirdos! anw blabla...dats abt it until we decided to haf a late lunch or mayb early dinner at B.K....haf to walk again...i saw some nice peacockz n rheas which really is like so really tame...u cld get so near dem n dey wldnt mind except when u chase em...hohoho...n den afta i got my meal...zash came wif pok acting weird...woa dey got rolled eyes frm transvestites..or howeva u spell it....wahahah...zash was all...ey mine is original uh...original boobs n original vagina...n flipping her hair anrd acting like a bitch...wahx...she making dem look sick..i mean dey actually looked sick..i mean dey look like totally disgusting! dey even got fake boobs done! but wateva...others say they look kinda pretty....but i think they look totally awful cuz their built is so rough like how a man shld b.....n turned into a gurl? dats like so yuckz! eww...oh well ended de day all tired outz...tried to do geog but oni did it half of it half-heartedly....

today tues...hmm...oh yah...was detesting today...cuz of pe! oh godz...how haf i deteriorated! i cldnt even complete 2 rounds wifout panting! but least i did...thanx to Pok  as she kept pulling me wheneva i stopped until she tired of pulling me n scolded me ..wahahahh...too caring sia..sorilah muz gimme chance mah...i slacked 4 one whole mth without excercising at all manz...n now i'm trying to catch up 6 rds at a go...wif small breaks in btwn...woa...n i reli felt like throwing up afta dat run...haix...oh yah pressured some more....cuz cca is hanting me....i still havent had one...i'd beta think of one b4 tmr...haix....i still dunno wat to join! godz help me....anw afta sch went to j.e long jhn silvers n ate lunch wif sya n aliff...we actually wanted to do our mly project abt ghost stuff at j.e library...relli pathetic uhz....but den ended up wif us exploring de quite "empty library" as in empty shelves...but ppl r definitly a lot esp de top floor...teens corner....huax...n den afta crapping abt a bk abt boobs....we juz discussed abt less den 5min abt de ghost thing n get outa der...hua....i was like yeah ...we werent exactly in de mood to do any research afta stuffing ourselves wif lotsa fries...ahahah...n went home in de rain ....haix....n here i am toking ...".bored n slpy am i...aint wanna do anything ...ah uh........"..blabla...BLAHZ!